| Why I am not on myspace anymore |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|11:15 am] |
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Why do people think they have the right to pass judgement on others? To question a political view, a religion, a lifestyle in general is one thing, but making personal attacks on someone because you disagree with their positions is completely unacceptable. Being verbally harassed by someone who knows me mostly through the words of others is not something I will tolerate or subject myself to. Keep your hateful words and unwelcomed opinions to yourself.
(Sorry to all my friends...this does not apply to you. Just needed to vent after a particularly unpleasant occurance.) |
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| Women |
[Apr. 5th, 2006|09:27 am] |
Wrote this the other night at one am when I was super stoned:
In all women, there is an inherent sense of wanting.
Not of purpose. For most women, that sensation takes much longer and much more seeking to achieve.
But wanting. Knowing all through one’s life that there is more to the universe then is being presented. Knowing just enough to know that there exists things beyond our reach , things actually worth the wanting.
How is it that girls, strong and opinionated little girls, still grow to be women in search of something? In search of love, seeking it in every dead-end sexual experience along the path to freedom. Straining ourselves to the breaking point in pursuit of the money and prestige we witness around us that we mistakenly take as power. Bearing children we may or may not feel pressured to produce? Why do strong girls grow into such weak women?
Beyond that, we seek the better. The greater existence of ourselves that we constantly foresee in our waking states. We seek connections to the divine in our loving, our fucking, our prayers and our chants and our childbirth moans. We give life and lose a little piece of our own. We give up what we need to in order for the ones we love around us to survive and be as happy as we can make them be. |
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| Long time between the live journals |
[Apr. 5th, 2006|09:23 am] |
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Wow. Ignore previous entry. Like, seriously. It was so long ago it is now irrelevant. Since the myspaceness is more about keeping in touch with people, I have decided that a lot of my art will end up here. Also, when i just need to vent the fuck out, here. SO, taking bitching with a grain of salt and expression for whatever you make of it, at least in my case. |
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| Just another day in paradise.... |
[Sep. 8th, 2004|09:34 pm] |
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Hey all (to all those non-existant people that don't read my journal cause it's new and no one knows about it)... adjusting to life in Stockton...relocation sucks, but it's new and that's exactly what I've been needing....
Got the stereo replaced in my car...for those that don't know, my car got broken into my first night in Stockton, and they took everything...but now I have an even better stereo, and insurance paid for it, so at least that's one less thing...can't live without my tunes, ya know!
Still job hunting...it sucks to be broke, but the feeling of being free to hold out for anything I want is such a free feeling...all through college, I always felt pressed to choose a major, get any job I could, and just follow this very tight path. For the first time, I feel like I can do anything, that I don't have to follow any preconceived plan...
Spent some time online tonight talking to a penpal...ended up talking about my relationship with Scott and what went wrong there...I realized it was the first time I could talk to someone about it that didn't know him, that I could feel free to gush about it all and analyze it and not feel selfish for thinking through my side of things...I will never date within a circle of friends again, because it is so not worth what happens when it doesn't work...it was an okay thing to talk though, because we ended up discussing our philosophies on relationships in general and how labels affect the way relationships play out...good conversation overall, very good for the psyche...
Drinking wine now and dying my hair...forever a fucking diva....! :) |
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